Sometimes I feel like Robin is my only friend, and she has to be. Ok, of course she doesn’t have to be, I don’t mean that… but I just mean that, well, we’re married – that’s different.
I know I have friends, many whom I respect and, when I see them, we have a great time together. And maybe it’s just having a baby which means having two full-time jobs, and I hardly have time to just hang out… but I can’t help but feel alone most days… sort of. Robin and Amalea are my incredible family, so I don’t really feel alone – but friendship speaking, I feel alone.
I can’t think of the last time I had a friend do something nice for me without me asking… Of course I have a horrible memory so it may not have been that long since one of my friends thoughtfully did something for me that made me feel loved, but for my crappy memory I can’t remember the last time. Actually I do remember… a couple that Robin and I are close to gave me a nice card and gift for my birthday, that was cool and unexpected…
But what happened to close friends who called ever so often just to see how you’re doing? What happened to hanging out one night a week and having friends that actually didn’t mind coming over just to hang? How is it that everyone is so busy (myself included) that we don’t find time for each other… it’s crazy, I’m going crazy.
I’m probably just whining without justification – I probably have more friends than I realize… but for whatever reason, this is how I am feeling tonight. So now I’ve told the world, so get on the phone and call me, I’ll probably screen your call cause I’m so freakin’ tired I can’t stand to talk to anyone… hmm… perhaps that’s why I feel alone; caller id ^_^
