Moving like we did is something I hope I never have to do again in my lifetime.  I still feel like it is worth it, but it is like a marathon.

I knew going into it that I would probably have a slow start.  It is hard for me to meet new people, to be in new situations, and to get confident in a new place.  With the addition of Amalea, and most of my days taken up with taking care of her, things have really gotten off to a slow start.  This week seemed to drag as Robin went to work every morning at 8 and returned each day around 3:30.  I tried to not just sit in front of the TV all day, but take Amalea out to parks, on drives to new places, and try and get things done that needed to get done.  Towards the end of the week I felt like I was beginning to get in the groove.  I have to give all those stay at home mom’s some credit, and some grace for how crazy some of them are - I’m beginning to understand.

Last night, Friday night, we had dinner at some new friends house.  Their names are John and Lenette.  John teaches Social Studies at Robin’s school, and they met because he mentioned he was from Santa Cruz (and so is Robin).  We set up this dinner, and went over their timidly, nervous (at least I was) of how it was going to go and if they would like us.  I should tell you it was great!  They are really nice people, and John and I seemed to hit it off right away.  He’s a big nerd like I am, and has this great collection of old NES and SNES (Nintendo) games.  We spent some time rummaging through them and he even let me borrow a couple (Secret of Mana & Castlevania IV for the SNES).  He even had a collection of Anime movies that Robin and I love (Castle in the Sky, Kiki’s Delivery Service, Spirited Away, etc.) We seem to share common interests, and he’s a funny guy with a good sense of humor, and majored in Theology.  I look forward to being able to spend some more time with both John and Lenette and hopefully developing a great new friendship.

Today has been a relaxing, beautiful Saturday.  Robin got up with Amalea and let me sleep until 8, which was amazing.  Then we had to go to Urgent Care this morning because Robin’s wrist has been bothering her.  She’s ok, but it gave me an opportunity to play with Amalea while she was in with the doctor.  After that we came home and Robin took Amalea and I was able to do some work, lie down, watch some tv and just relax a bit.  It has been a great day, and a great week.

I thank God for his providence and his constant love.  Thanks for what you’ve shown me this week God.

Sometimes I feel like Robin is my only friend, and she has to be.  Ok, of course she doesn’t have to be, I don’t mean that… but I just mean that, well, we’re married - that’s different.

I know I have friends, many whom I respect and, when I see them, we have a great time together.  And maybe it’s just having a baby which means having two full-time jobs, and I hardly have time to just hang out… but I can’t help but feel alone most days… sort of.  Robin and Amalea are my incredible family, so I don’t really feel alone - but friendship speaking, I feel alone.

I can’t think of the last time I had a friend do something nice for me without me asking… Of course I have a horrible memory so it may not have been that long since one of my friends thoughtfully did something for me that made me feel loved, but for my crappy memory I can’t remember the last time.  Actually I do remember… a couple that Robin and I are close to gave me a nice card and gift for my birthday, that was cool and unexpected…

But what happened to close friends who called ever so often just to see how you’re doing?  What happened to hanging out one night a week and having friends that actually didn’t mind coming over just to hang?  How is it that everyone is so busy (myself included) that we don’t find time for each other… it’s crazy, I’m going crazy.

I’m probably just whining without justification - I probably have more friends than I realize… but for whatever reason, this is how I am feeling tonight.  So now I’ve told the world, so get on the phone and call me, I’ll probably screen your call cause I’m so freakin’ tired I can’t stand to talk to anyone… hmm… perhaps that’s why I feel alone; caller id ^_^